Sin Zapato

Wow and thank you

I didn’t write on Day 4 of my Great Social Media Pause. And I forgive myself for it.

Yesterday was a righteous good, long, fruitful day that began with an acupuncture session with my sleep gurus. After that I managed to get my Elder out into the fresh air and over to her personal Disneyland (Walmart). No small feat. As dinnertime came around, I got us some takeout, and then I checked in on ailing loved ones who aren’t within hot-soup-drop-off distance. In between this, that, and the other thing, I did the chores, kept Mami engaged, and took breathers here and there at my kitchen window.

When I landed on the coach, I thought, how did I do all this before I quit reaching for my phone every free moment?

And then I realized, the free moment is now, sister, and if not for the self-imposed break, you’d be on that gadget right now, hopping from one app to the next, scrolling like a madman for hours, eyes burning and TV on in the background for noise.

It is lovely to not multitask. Even entertainment and escape deserve their full attention, don’t you think? So I turned on the TV for something easy and light to drift away and into.

Don’t ask me what that was, though. I fell out in a blink and dragged my ass into my bedroom shortly thereafter.

Today I woke up at 1:00 p.m.

I honestly cannot remember the last time I slept as long or as deeply. It was a thorough affair of rest. I even dreamed. For the second night in a row. Vividly. A dream in which my body had fully recovered from its own current limitations. I could feel it. A fully executed, upward-facing dog pose. Neck and upper back muscles gloriously engaged.

When I opened my eyes and saw the time, the first words that took shape in my mind were “wow” and “thank you.”

Only now as I write do I realize that I not only slept for 12 hours straight, I woke up without that unrelenting sense of dread, the one that’s been sitting in the pit of my stomach serving as morning alarm clock for 6 or 7 years.

Today, none of that. Today, I simply and quietly woke up.

At the moment I’m in the corner of the U.S. that’s under blizzard conditions. It’s just past 2:00 a.m. and I’ll be shutting down as soon as I hit the “Publish” button up on the right of my screen. But first, I’ll show you what it’s like right now in my little corner of planet Earth. I feel like I live in a Shakespeare play.

Of course, I’ll be singing a different tune as I dig my car out from under two feet of this stuff tomorrow morning, but right now?

My God. And wow. And thank you.

Wishing us all a week of wonder, gratitude, and easy wakeups.

S